Toffee Love 2

i want you to take me on the front of a car
whilst the rain falls and soaks us to the bone

she said those words. she said those words to me. and i loved her though i shouldn't.
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i had never seen teeth so white or eyes so blue before. pearls and diamonds. diamonds and pearls.
her tongue tasted of stale cigarettes and the taste made me glad that i didn't smoke.
the sun stroked the car like the golden hand of god caressing a cat and the promise of days stretched out before us.
a myth in the making but a pleasant one.
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she undid my shirt and sucked upon my nipples and then kissed my stomach with the flutter kiss of butterfly lips.
i sighed a smug and self satisfied sigh and thought that there must be a god in heaven that has blessed me with forbidden kisses that fell from my chest to my midriff to my waist.
down.
down.
i placed my hands on her knees and prised her legs apart and she screamed. the sound shattered the moment as though stones thrown against stained glass.
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what's wrong? honey, what's wrong?
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she wept tears of poisoned jade from those gorgeous azure eyes.
she spoke in staccato syllables that bruised against her sobs and told me of a step father with his ivy hands and worm withered loins. she spoke of dark days and even darker nights and of a mother who knew but looked the other way with blinkered eyes. of a man who whispered honeyed threats and wanted secrets sinister kept silent and hidden like cobwebs in a coffin.
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"this is love, this is love that i'm feeling"
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and i knew then that the scars of childhood terrors and memories ran deeper than any shared love.
and i knew then.
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take me home. please....
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she said those words. she said those words to me. and i loved her though i shouldn't.

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words by cocaine jesus

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